Kenyataan Media KARISMA berkenaan Isu BTN

KARISMA Setuju Usaha Meneliti Semula Sukatan Kursus BTN

Kelab Rakan Siswa Islah Malaysia (KARISMA) bersetuju dengan keputusan jemaah menteri untuk meniliti semula sukatan kursus Biro Tata Negara (BTN) dan memastikan program ini menyemai semangat patriotisme dan nilai positif yang sebenar di kalangan semua lapisan masyarakat Malaysia seperti yang telah digariskan dalam objektif kursus tersebut.

Penelitian tersebut harus melibatkan pendapat masyarakat madani melalui wakil sedia ada seperti aktivis masyarakat, badan bukan kerajaan, ahli akademik dan mahasiswa yang pernah menghadiri kursus ini. Pandangan dari semua pihak perlu diambil kira sebelum penelitian menyeluruh dilaksanakan agar usaha mengemas kini sukatan tersebut benar-benar berkesan dan bukan hanya mencukupkan syarat semakan semula sukatan kursus.

25 November lalu, Kerajaan Negeri Selangor melalui Exco Pendidikan Tinggi, Dr Halimah Ali telah mengumumkan bahawa semua kakitangan kerajaan negeri dan pelajar IPT milik kerajaan negeri itu dilarang menyertai kursus BTN kerana kursus tersebut bermotifkan doktrinasi politik dan perkauman. Sebagai maklumbalas, Timbalan Perdana Menteri, Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin telah menafikan dakwaan serta menyebut bahawa sekiranya kerajaan negeri Selangor tidak mahu menyertai kursus BTN, maka itu adalah pilihan kerajaan negeri Selangor sendiri.

KARISMA turut mendapat maklumbalas daripada mahasiswa yang telah menyertai kursus tersebut bahawa dakwaan yang dibuat oleh Dr Halimah Ali ada kebenarannya. Memupuk sifat jati dalam diri setiap warganegara Malaysia adalah amat wajar, namun sekiranya penyampaian pengendali kursus menyentuh sensitiviti kaum, pasti ianya akan menyebabkan akal waras peserta sukar menerima fahaman yang diberikan. Dakwaan adanya tuduhan terhadap individu-individu tertentu yang dilihat bertentangan dengan haluan kerajaan pusat juga tidak perlu dilakukan di dalam kursus yang bertujuan menanamkan sikap patriotisme dan perpaduan masyarakat. Apatah lagi jasa-jasa kerajaan adalah sebenarnya tanggungjawab sebuah kerajaan yang dilantik rakyat, bukanlah senarai budi yang perlu dikenang dan dijadikan hutang oleh rakyat. 

Meskipun modul JARI (Jasmani, Rohani, Emosi dan Intelek) sejak sekian lama digunakan dalam kursus BTN didakwa berjaya memupuk semangat patriotik namun kadangkala terdapat beberapa pengendali kursus ini yang telah mengambil kesempatan menimbulkan fenomena perkauman dan doktrinasi politik seperti yang didakwa oleh exco pendidikan kerajaan negeri Selangor baru-baru ini. Dakwaan ini perlulah dikaji dan diatasi segera oleh pihak yang berwajib.

Tegasnya, KARISMA berpendirian bahawa usaha mengemas kini dan menyemak semula sukatan kursus BTN perlu diteliti dengan mengambil kira pandangan daripada pelbagai pihak. Hasil semakan tersebut juga perlu didedahkan kepada umum supaya kerajaan dilihat adil dan telus berhubung isu ini. KARISMA juga menyarankan supaya latihan produktif yang selaras diberikan kepada semua pengendali kursus agar objektif kursus dalam menyatupadukan kaum dan semangat cintakan negara tercapai. Usaha ini harus dilaksanakan bersungguh-sungguh oleh Jabatan Perdana Menteri kerana sebelum ini sudah terdapat aduan dari ibu bapa peserta mengenai BTN tetapi tidak mendapat liputan seperti yang berlaku selepas larangan kerajaan negeri Selangor ini.

Pencapaian kursus Biro Tatanegara dengan mendapat maklum balas daripada peserta kursus akan datang diharapkan bersih daripada sebarang dakwaan doktrinasi politik mahupun perkauman. Adalah juga diharapkan sukatan kursus BTN yang baru benar-benar meningkatkan semangat cintakan negara, taat setia dan perpaduan masyarakat Malaysia seperti mana yang ingin diketengahkan dalam konsep 1 Malaysia.

Kesimpulannya, KARISMA ingin menyarankan tiga perkata utama sepertimana yang telah disebutkan diatas iaitu:

1. Usaha mengemas kini dan menyemak semula sukatan kursus BTN perlu diteliti dengan mengambil kira pandangan daripada pelbagai pihak.

2. Hasil semakan tersebut juga perlu didedahkan kepada umum supaya kerajaan dilihat adil dan telus berhubung isu BTN.

3. Latihan produktif yang selaras diberikan kepada semua pengendali kursus agar objektif kursus BTN ini dapat dicapai.


ABDULLAH OMAR BIN MUHAMAD FUAD
PRESIDEN
KELAB RAKAN SISWA ISLAH MALAYSIA (KARISMA)

GOOD PLANNING AND GOOD MATERIALS?

I’m pretty sure for the past month; most of us (probably Malaysian university students) are all busy with their last minute studies for the finals. The tense, depression, stress all surfaces at once. With the limited time frame, all work are scheduled so compact that you won’t have any time to think about anything other than books or assignments. That was a month’s back story.

Time ticks away.

Then you know it three days left.

Then suddenly it’s tomorrow.

Then it’s today.

Then it now!

All you could reflect is the effort you’ve put in, and the time you’ve managed to not go to waste, the energy you quenched all night and all the gloom you’ve had to face..comes to that 5 pieces of paper. Or more. Or less. Is that it? A semester pulling ourselves together, 4 months of consistently going to class and doing homeworks, having to travel back and forth just to meet our lecturer and ask one solution for a tricky question, taking notes and photocopying the text book because it’s cheaper but ended up not using it..just to have ourselves be put into a hall for 3 hours and flip some papers full of “Haha..got’cha” questions?

Most people would say, “don’t worry, the results aren’t that important, whats most important is that you know you’ve tried hard enough”..But that’s not the issue. That exam paper, will end up in our result script. And we’ll be holding to that very result for the rest of our lives!

You won’t have another chance to change anything on that final year 1st semester result script.
What has been done is done. You’ll have the glory or perhaps shame for eternity.
All this, goes back to two things at the early of the semester.

1. Good plannings

2. The best quality.

Without proper planning, one can barely see where he/she is heading. What needs to be done to have the results we need. What were done by those who succeeded and what came by those who failed and casted aside. Strategy in positioning ourselves where and when, what class and with whom, what’s next and why. And most of all, good planning will go to nothing with out execution. 

The same analogy for a house. One would go with planning first; blue print, design, colour, things that’ll make the owner happy and things to avoid. And of course, the planning needs to be executed, or there won’t ever be a house standing.

Another step in building a good house is to have the best quality products and materials. Jotun paint, meranti wood etc. it’s the same thing as ourselves, we’d surely want the best things to wear. Branded shoes, well known trademark shirts, trendy accessories etc. in studies, we’d opt to go for the best teachers, good ‘nerdy’ friends, simple and compact past year students notes etc. 

All this is to ensure that we have the best results in our finals. So that we could hold on to it proudly in the future.

Thus, this basic understanding applies similarly to our lives after death. What we do now determines the eternal final destination. And we could simply group it into two things. Good planning and best quality product.

Good planning also includes knowing where we came from, why we are here and where will we end. Planning to enhance ourselves to become better muslims, to build a family, to lead a faithful community and so on. Best quality product then reflects the quality of our ibadah. The pureness of our aqidah. Our ambitious dreams. What path we take to build our selves into strong obedient muslims; those who not only desires heaven and Allah redha, but also eager to bring along others with them.

وَمَنْ أَحْسَنُ قَوْلاً مِّمَّن دَعَا إِلَى اللَّهِ وَعَمِلَ صَالِحاً وَقَالَ إِنَّنِي مِنَ الْمُسْلِمِين

Al Fussilat:33 ;And whom speaks better than those who calls to Allah while he himself does good, and says: I am surely amongst those who submit?

وَلْتَكُن مِّنكُمْ أُمَّةٌ يَدْعُونَ إِلَى الْخَيْرِ وَيَأْمُرُونَ بِالْمَعْرُوفِ وَيَنْهَوْنَ عَنِ الْمُنكَرِ وَأُوْلَـئِكَ هُمُ الْمُفْلِحُونَ

Ali Imran:104 ; And from amongst you there should be a party who invite to good and enjoin what is right and forbid the wrong, and those are them who shall be successful.

"if you are in the evening, don't wait for the morning to come. and if you're in the morning, don't wait for the evening. thus use your time wisely during you are healthy before you become sick, and your time while you live before you die" by Umar in Sahih Bukhari (hadith 40 of matan 40 of imam nawawi) 

Because heaven is for eternity. And also hell. Same as our results.

To live in a beautiful house, a place filled with tranquility and peace, a place that’ll last for ever so that we could past it on to our children and to the next coming generation. A place to call home; will need proper planning and the best quality materials.

Qayyim Hafidzi

DK, Seksyen 8 Bandar Baru Bangi,

Just finished EMS final exam...a result i'll have for the rest of my life (Ya Allah, berikanlah yang terbaik)

INILAH JALANNYA

Begitu lama ukhuwah kita bertaut atas jalan ini
Sejak bila, pertemuan pertama, dimanapun sudah kabur di ingatan
Sekian lama ikatan kasih ini terjalin
Sekian lama jugalah aku memendam rasa
Agar kita meniti jalan yang sama, jalan yang panjang penuh cabaran
Begitu banyak kini yang kita raih
Begitu banyak jualah yang masih kita tagih
Impian kita akan sentiasa tinggi
Sebagaimana tingginya hakikat keimanan yang haq itu
Impian kita akan sentiasa kita perjuangkan
Sebagaimana tekadnya sang pejuang qital memburu syahid
Impian kita akan sentiasa kita kongsikan
Sebagaimana kita berkongsi makan diwaktu kepayahan
Ayuh kita layangkan pandangan pada impian ini
Tataplah sinar kejayaan yang pasti itu dengan semangat membara
Agar kita bina halatuju ini kepadanya
Yakinlah ia ada dihujung jalan
Suatu jalan yang panjang, payah dan sukar memang pasti
Menuntut kualiti yang bukan calang-calang
Memerah keringat yang tidakkan terdaya
Begitu banyak lompong hari semalam
Apakah kita layak untuk sekalipun duduk atas jalan ini?
Izzahlah dengan apa yang kita kerjakan!
Moga lompong semalam kita isi di waktu mendatang
kerana tiada lompong atas muka bumi melainkan ia akan segera diisi semula
baik dari tanah mahupun sekujur tubuh manusia
Tika jasad-jasad kita tidak lagi bersua
Tika suara kita tidak lagi saling berbicara
Tika ruh kita menghadap yang maha Esa
Menuntut belas kasih dan rahmanNya
“Ya Allah..aku telah meniti jalan keredhaanMu”
Mampukah kita ucapkan yang sedemikian?
Redhakah kita atas apa yang telah kita kerjakan?
Sahabat, Inilah jalannya
Thabatlah, kerana tiada lagi jalan yang lain

Qayyim Hafidzi

27 Oktober 2009
Darul Khair, no. 30 jln 8/13, Bandar Baru Bangi, Selangor
UNITEN, final exam week, 1st semester final year 2009

Jalan dakwah ni, bukannya jalan baru..kita sebenarnya meniti jalan-jalan yang telah pun di'pave'kan oleh para rasul2 dan golongan solihin. tapi kalau taknak ikut atau bersungguh dan teliti, macam nilah jadinya.

perkongsian dari www.dk-kidhl.blogspot.com

ditujukan khas buat sahabat; Syafizal, Azzizi, Luqman Pathi, Luqman A.Halim, Airil, Jaffreen

Catatan Permusafiran Perubatan Abi

Assalamualaikum,

setinggi-tinggi kesyukuran dipanjatkan kepada Allah, atas kasih dan sayangNya, Dia melimpahkan kami sekeluarga nikmat ukhuwah islamiyah. untuk mendapatkan maklumat terkini berkenaan perubatan Dr. Hafidzi (ayahanda kami), para pengunjung bolehlah terus melayari portal Catatan Perubatan Dr Hafidzi.

anda boleh sama ada terus ke link www.lambaian-islah-perubatan.blogspot.com ataupun clik di link yang telah disediakan di atas.

Sekian

Qayyim Hafidzi (013-3266832 / qayyimh@gmail.com)

p/s: untuk berurusan dengan keluarga kami, buat sementara waktu, bolehlah menghubungi saya di nombor dan email di atas. untuk urusan pembelian madu Tualang Dr. Hafidzi pun sama..

petikan daripada www.lambaian-islah.blogspot.com

Saat Jiwa Rasa Berat

kadang-kadang bila semua yang berlaku hari tu, semuanya tak kena...

jiwa kita mula rasa 'down', terkenang kembali pengorbanan-pengorbanan sepanjang kenal dakwah & tarbiyah ni..hati terasa sangat mahu dekat dengan Allah, tapi terasa juga jauh dari nikmatnya.

sahabat aku  pesan:

"ambil wuduk, bukak aircond..baca quran"

ya Allah, bangunkan aku esok dengan semangat baru!

THE CAR

History has stated that without the invention of the tire, people today would not have known about cars. So the tire was the key design to the development of the car and other transport medium we know today. But that’s centuries back.

Today, the car has become a little bit more sophisticated and more vulnerable. This is talking from the maintenance point of view since a car now doesn’t only needs it tires to be checked regularly, but also its engine and other machines that’ll make the car work or at least gets it going. Even the smallest of parts under the hood is as important as the engine itself.

So, yesterday I went to service my car at a nearby workshop. Usually I’d head to proton service center, but didn’t have the time and money, so decided just to have my lubricant serviced. Before that, the night before, my car got overheated on my way to UNITEN for my EMS test. The day before that, GG took the car to Putrajaya for his rowing practice, and the aircond suddenly wasn’t cooling anymore. I actually thought it was due to the aircond gas, but since the car suddenly suffered from abrupt turning off, I got the sense there was something wrong with the engine. The lubricant is almost dried up. That should be the cause. (It’s been almost 3 month since my last service, plus with the broken mileage meter, I had no idea when to service the car..was planning to do it after my finals which is mid November)

Forced to get things fixed, I took the car to the workshop. There. Only that I knew my water pump was leaking. That was the cause to my over heated engine. Solution:

1. Get it replaced for RM140 (pump) + RM20 (labor)
2. Frequently fill the radiator with water..Before leaving the house or after a long parking period.

And I took the later.

Don’t know how long I can stand this routine, but eventually will have to replace the pump after all.

The water pump. It’s not the main component of the car, but has a big side effect if it’s broken. Closely related to the performance of the car’s engine and the coolness of the aircond blow. So how could we related this to life?

If the engine is analogically the man’s heart (jantung), then the water pump could be the human’s respiratory/sweating system. Insignificant compared to the role the heart is playing. But if our sweating system doesn’t functions as it should, that’ll cause other problems which will sooner or later burden the heart itself. 

If the engine is the heart (hati), then I could say that the water pump could be the good deeds we do. How is that logically put together? The heart would be the main host for our true aqidah and iman. The main core to be truly a servant of Allah. Thus the good deeds (amal) are insignificant compared to the core matter. (understanding that the minimum requirement for jannah is the syahadah). But does this neglect the significant relationship of our deeds and our aqidah? No. With the true aqidah, one must still perform ibadah and instill good deeds (amar ma’ruf nahi munkar) because it’s the testimony of what we believe in. trying to increase the quality of our ibadah, is just likely to be similar to servicing our car so that the engine runs smoothly. If our deeds are not good enough, then be prepared that our engine (aqidah) will face troublesome times. Thus always service ourselves for that smooth ride.

But do bear in mind. If the core is suffering from certain malfunction, then it is our priority to aid that first. Just like the car, if both the engine and the water pump needs repair, we’d probably and logically opt to repair the engine first. Basic priority problem here. As for us, if all our body is suffering from various disease, we would cure the heart first compared to others.

Thus having the right aqidah is a priority. Compared to the other matters of this deen, the ummah’s aqidah is top priority. But do we see that our ummah now has the right aqidah set in their lives? Is the ummah’s engine running fine?

We’re not moving brothers and sisters. The car engine is dead!

To revive it will constitute our time, our effort, our belongings..our lives.

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آَمَنُوا هَلْ أَدُلُّكُمْ عَلَى تِجَارَةٍ تُنجِيكُم مِّنْ عَذَابٍ أَلِيمٍ

تُؤْمِنُونَ بِاللَّهِ وَرَسُولِهِ وَتُجَاهِدُونَ فِي سَبِيلِ اللَّهِ بِأَمْوَالِكُمْ وَأَنفُسِكُمْ ذَلِكُمْ خَيْرٌ لَّكُمْ إِن كُنتُمْ تَعْلَمُونَ

[as-Saff 61:10] O you who believe! shall I lead you to a merchandise which may deliver you from a painful chastisement?

[as-Saff 61:11] You shall believe in Allah and His Apostle, and struggle hard in Allah's way with your property and your lives; that is better for you, did you but know!

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broQ: updates on Abi (Dr. Hafidzi. Mohd Noor)

1. alhamdulillah, kesihatan abi makin baik berbanding sebelum ramadhan. mungkin berkat doa ikhwah/akhawat semua. jzkk ana ucapkan atas keperihatinan antum semua. berbanding dengan ramadhan2 sebelum ini, sejak abi mula dialisis, puasa ramadhan kali ni alhamdulillah dapat penuh.

2. sumbangan kewangan yang di initiate kan oleh jamaah, telahpun sampai sasarannya. dan sampai ke hari ini, setelah tabung ditutup, kami masih menerima sumbangan terus secara peribadi. sekali lagi ana ucapkan jzkk. moga Allah menggantikan apa yang antum infakkan dengan yang lebih baik. dan moga apa yang diberikan itu ada manfaat dan keberkatannya dalam usaha menyembuhkan keadaan abi.

3. insyaAllah abi akan ke cina untuk transplant dalam pertengahan november. belum pasti siapa yang akan temankan abi sepanjang proses perubatan disana. pada awalnya, plan nak buat pertengahan oktober ini, tapi kerana urusan kerja dan keluarga, dilewatkan sedikit.

4. abi masih menjalani proses dialisis seperti biasa. every isnin, rabu dan jumaat petang (3pm-7pm). sepanjang ramadhan hingga kini, abi lebih selesa memandi ke pusat dialisis sendiri. kadang-kadang kami adik beradik akan hantarkan (mana yang ada di rumah). tapi nampaklah, kesihatan abi lebih baik berbanding sebelum ini.

5. sekali lagi ana ucapkan jzkk pada semua yang menyumbang baik dari kewangan, doa, support dan sebagainya. moga Allah mengganjari jasa antum pada kami sekeluarga dengan jannah firdaus. tanggungjawab antum sudah selesai, ana, adik2 dan umi akan teruskan tanggungjawab kami untuk jaga abi sebaik mungkin. kami sedar, abi bukan milik kami sendirian...tapi milik ummah seluruhnya.

BIARPUN SEBENTAR, ASALKAN BUAT

Alhamdulillah, segala puji bagi Allah. Empunya segala kuasa; kemampuan mentadbir, kekuatan menggerakkan, keupayaan menetapkan..segala sesuatu. keranaNya jualah, kita merasai nikmat ramadhan dan keagungan syawal. Dialah yang berkuasa untuk melenyapkan jua segala sesuatu, dari ada kepada tiada mahupun menjadikan sebaliknya. Sebagaimana sahabat-sahabat kita yang terlebih dahulu pergi menghadapNya, sedang ramadhan hanya beberapa hari lagi, sedangkan syawal sebentar sahaja lagi.

Atas setiap sesuatu, Dia menjadikannya tiada yang sia-sia. Setiap langkah yang kita tapaki, setiap hela nafas yang kita tarik dan hembus, setiap sel yang tumbuh dan mati..tiada yang sia-sia. Begitu jua hidup dan mati. Semuanya ada sebab dan musabab, semuanya ada punca dan tempat kembali.

Al Mulk ayat 2.

Dan Dia jadikan al Maut dan al Hayah untuk uji dikalangan kamu, siapakah yang baik amalannya.

Fenomena kematian dan kehidupan bersangkutan dengan masa. Kerana setiap orang (makhluk yang hidup) ada masanya yang tertentu, dan apabila habis rezeki masa yang dikurniakan, kembalilah ruhnya kepada tuannya.

Allah tidak menjadikan sebab malam al Qadr itu sebagai asas kepada ibadah. Lailatul Qadr bukannya punca kepada ibadah malam-malam ganjil sewaktu ramadhan. Jika itulah asasnya, maka lailatul Qadr telahpun berlalu. Adakah kita tidak akan menghidupkan malam lagi dengan ibadah? Terhentikah amalam I’tikaf di masjid kerana tiada lagi malam ganjaran yang dikejar-kejar selama 10 malam sebelum ini?

Terimbau kembali detik-detik akhir ramadhan bersama keluarga. Maklumlah, sepanjang bulan ramadhan masing-masing akan sibuk dengan urusan masing-masing. Terpaksalah menghidupkan biah ibadah sendirian bersama rakan-rakan serumah dan sekolah. Bila sudah pulang, peluang yang ada patut dimanfaatkan untuk bersama termasuklah aktiviti solat berjamaah dan qiam.

Hari aku pulang, khamis 27 ramadhan. Sesampai dirumah, azan isya’ telahpun berkumandang. Sebelum itu, dah janji dengan Odi nak hantarkan dia ke KTM untuk dia bersama rakan-rakan sekolah Hira’ Jeram berik’tikaf di masjid UIAM, namun atas kecelaruan yang berlaku, dia bermalam di rumah sahaja malam itu. Walaupun malam itu malam ke 28 (genap), tapi abi mengingatkan kami untuk keluar beri’tikaf di masjd-masjid berhampiran (terutamanya masjid UKM – yang memang jadi port kami sekeluarga). Abi dan umi mungkin tidak akan turut serta kerana keletihan, maklum sahaja keadaan abi yang kurang sihat kebelakangan ini. Aku pula berjanji dengan Odi untuk beri’tikaf di masjid Besi (masjid Tengku Mizan – masjid baru putrajaya)..kataku “kita keluar rumah pukul 11 malam ya..nanti kejut abang, nak tido dulu”.

11.00am

Aku masih tidur.

3.00am

Aku masih di sofa. Tidur.

3.30am

“abang..bangun! jom kita I’tikaf kat masjid UKM. Sempat lagi ni” kata abi. Waktu itu, semua orang sudah bangun. Aku bergegas ke bilik air untuk siapkan diri termasuklah mandi (memang kebiasaan, sebelum I’tikaf mesti mandi, mungkin mengambil I’brah surah mudathir). Sewaktu aku keluar rumah; umi, abi dan Odi sudahpun ada dalam kereta (amin di seremban, on the way balik dari Kuantan). Sesampai di UKM, jam sudah 4.00am.

Pagi itu, kami sempat untuk qiam fardi dan I’tikaf di Masjid UKM sampai pukul 5.00am.

Begitulah abi mendidik kami. Hata dirumahpun, jika sempat kami bangun sebelum subuh, selalu diingatkan untuk bangunkan solat tahajud 2 rakaat paling kurang. Waktu kecil dahulu, dititipkan wang dalam saku baju melayu untuk dijadikan sedekah ke masjid sewaktu solat jumaat. Kadang-kadang 20sen, 50 sen..tapi tak pernah abi lupa. Sejak dapat duit belanja sekolah, abi dah hentikan. Cuma kami yang lupa nak jadikan ia amalan.

Allah menguji hambaNya dengan masa yang dikurniakan. Kearah mana ia luangkan. Dan Alhamdulillah, malam itu kami berjaya meluangkannya untuk bersama Allah walaupun sebentar. 

Mungkin tajuk posting aku kali ini lebih tepat jika aku jadikannya “BAIRPUN SEDIKIT ASALKAN BUAT”..

Tapi memang malam itu, kami I’tikaf 1 jam sahaja.

broQ: insyaAllah next posting on updates pasal health condition abi. Alhamdulillah, abi makin sihat.

2.30am Pulang Mendengar Wasiat

banyak coretan hendak aku buat sejak hari jumaat. awal persediaan ke himpunan mansuh, penahanan bai, sukarelawan tahanan perhimpunan di balai polis bukit jalil sampailah ke site visit program rehlah KiDHL. tapi mungkin hati terpanggil untuk menulis berkenaan tajuk posting dahulu, takut terlupa harapan dan pesanan-pesanan terakhirnya.

mungkin belum lagi masanya untuk abi pergi, tapi sejak seminggu lepas, abi demam-demam. medical check-up pula mengesahkan kehadiran air dalam jantung abi, which is not a very good sign especially in a condition like him. currently, he's heart is functioning with only 40% of it's actualy strength. below 50%....its less than half.

kebetulan malam tadi, kami adik beradik semua ada di bangi. odi dan amin datang ke DK sekitar 2.00am untuk panggil aku pulang. mereka cuba hubungi hp, tapi kehabisan battery sebab tak charge sejak perhimpunan mansuh tempoh hari. sudah pasti ia panggilan pulang yang agak berat bagiku. dalam hati sudah terdetik yang bukan-bukan. tapi aku gagahkan diri untuk balik jua.

"entah, abi terasa nak sangat jumpa anak-anak malam ni..keadaan abi sekarang dah kurang sihat. Dr tak kasi minum air, tapi tekak abi terasa sangat haus. abi tak panggil semua untuk sedihkan anak-anak, tapi abi nak sampaikan pesanan. jantung abi dah tak kuat, mungkin abi tak pergi dalam masa terdekat ni, tapi kita kena bersedia.

abi tak ada harta sangat. rumah-rumah sewa tuh jelah yang ada..buku-buku abi yang banyak kat rumah ni, manfaatkanlah. (itu jelah harta aku boleh relate dengan ayah aku, rumah-rumah sewa tu tak pernah terlintas dalam fikiran). abi ada 4 lagi buku yang belum terbit, abi ketepikan untuk anak-anak dan umi uruskan. 

jaga waktu solat, jangan tinggal. jaga kebajikan umi, bantu umi. nanti kalau abi perlu, mungkin atuk kita kena hantar ke rumah orang-orang tua. take care of atuk. abi mintak maaf banyak-banyak pada semua, abi selalu buat semua orang susah. abi redha dengan semua orang. abi tak ada simpan sedikitpun dalam hati."

mungkin as time flows by, aku akan ingat lagi bait-bait ucapannya malam itu. 

cuma, mampukah aku teruskan perjuangannya. mampukah aku jadi setanding dengannya?

pada yang membaca, panjatkan doa untuk ayahku, Dr. Hafidzi Mohd Noor..agar terus dikurniakan kesihatan berpanjangan, kekuatan untuk meneruskan perjuangan. mungkin boleh bantu jika sms kata-kata semangat..ziarah mungkin kurangkan. keadaannya tak begitu mengizinkan orang untuk datang ziarah (keletihan yang amat sangat).

aku hargai jasa semua. terutamanya, being there with him, when i myslef isn;t there to help him.

MANSUH...panggilan sudah berkumandang!

apakah engkau masih mahu duduk sekadar menyaksikan?

perubahan dunia yang dilakukan sang pejuang

enak sangatkah berlindung dibalik dinding rumah merasa selamat?

sedang mereka dikurung dicerca dihambat

engkau mahu merubah dunia, tapi hanya dengan kata-kata?

berjuang dan bercakap, dua medan yang tiada sama

sibukkan diri dengan perkara kecil, sebab engaku tiada kaitan?

ya mungkin bukan engkau atau keluarga engkau dibalik jeriji besi kamunting...

يَا أَيُّهَا الَّذِينَ آمَنُواْ مَا لَكُمْ إِذَا قِيلَ لَكُمُ انفِرُواْ فِي سَبِيلِ اللّهِ اثَّاقَلْتُمْ إِلَى الأَرْضِ أَرَضِيتُم بِالْحَيَاةِ الدُّنْيَا مِنَ الآخِرَةِ فَمَا مَتَاعُ الْحَيَاةِ الدُّنْيَا فِي الآخِرَةِ إِلاَّ قَلِيلٌ

[Taubah:38] Hai orang-orang yang beriman, apakah sebabnya bila dikatakan kepadamu : "Berangkatlah (untuk berperang) pada jalan Allah" kamu merasa berat dan ingin tinggal di tempatmu? Apakah kamu puas dengan kehidupan di dunia sebagai ganti kehidupan di akhirat? Padahal keni'matan hidup di dunia ini (dibandingkan dengan kehidupan) diakhirat hanyalah sedikit.

وَلَوْ أَرَادُواْ الْخُرُوجَ لأَعَدُّواْ لَهُ عُدَّةً وَلَـكِن كَرِهَ اللّهُ انبِعَاثَهُمْ فَثَبَّطَهُمْ وَقِيلَ اقْعُدُواْ مَعَ الْقَاعِدِينَ

[Taubah:46] Dan jika mereka mau berangkat, tentulah mereka menyiapkan persiapan untuk keberangkatan itu, tetapi Allah tidak menyukai keberangkatan mereka, maka Allah melemahkan keinginan mereka. Dan dikatakan kepada mereka: "Tinggallah kamu bersama orang-orang yang tinggal itu."

Diversity: how you look on it?

Talking about this issue, it reminds me of my first National program that i attended as a participant: Konvensyen Tarbiyah Nasional (KONTARN) in 2007 which was held in Melaka. One of the input sessions was given by Dr. Harlina (Ketua Wanita JIM) on 'Diversity Management'.

i couldn't recall all the significant points shared during the talk, but what i could conclude from it was that diversity will happen in organizations and in our daily lives. thus how we manage it will reflect on the effects, either we deal with it or ignore, either we take advantage of it or let it be in control, either we demolish it or put some effort towards working together.

Currently i'm doing my practical training in STS. We have this Turnaround (TA) project with Petlin where my company provides the maintenance services during the regulatory DOSH shutdown. having to work 7 days a week, going back at 10pm, i see and deal with alot of trends and personalities. There are those who blame, while others won't take the blame. There are those who are committed, while others take advantage. There are those who know, while others act like they know. There are those who gets work done, while....well, no one gets work undone or lag behind!

Yeap, thats the scenario here. We deal with alot of diversity, from different family backgrounds, different working style, different company..work is still being done. and everyone is chasing progress. no progress is not an option.

I've learnt alot from my supervisor, who is also the STS Terengganu Branch Manager and the TA manager; Hj Fakhrul Anuar Hj Zulkawi. I'm very impressed with how he handles diversity, how he changes stressful situations and changes it into opportunities that opens up new beginnings. It's probably how he views it. From that only each 'defect' can be 'chances' in management.

From the PKMY scene, we have guys who stick with PKMY, while others prefer 3RUNMY. This is also a complex situation where we have different opinions but stick together. As i strongly believe that by being in one big community will benefit all. Although the opportunity to discuss such issue in the community is quite hard, but by looking at it in a possitive manner will solve alot rather than arguing on it with no solution. 

It was just yesterday that i had dinner with some of the Petlin trainees who were also the same age as me from UTP. Shakur, Rizal, Farid and Hafiz. I met Rizal the first time i went into Petlin, and had the first impression of that he must be damn rich since he's such a young engineer. Then i met Rizal while applying my TA briefing card, i addressed him 'abang'. hahaha..the second time we met was outside the Petlin Musolla. Only then we got the chance the introduce ourselves.

We shared our backgrounds, and it turns out that Shakur knows Abdullah Omar...as the President of KARISMA. So i asked if he joins any of the KARISMA's activities or perhaps want to join. He answered that he's already involved with another wadah, which i didn't ask further.

so what is it..

A) different ship, same destination?

B) same ship, different task, same destination?

C) different ship, same flag, same destination?

To me personally, i'd go for B. i don't know, but to me..We all are on the same ship and we all agree to the one flag that the ship carries. It's just that we have different task so that the ship always progresses forward towards our ultimate destination. If one section fails or slows down with they're designated tasks, the ship also slows down. If one crew section lags behind, all crew lags too.

Which one answer we pick..the question still lingers.

WHERE IS OUR KHALIFAH..OUR SHIP CAPTAIN?

to be continued after jumaah prayer (5/6/2009-sts petlin TA)

ANTARA MEMPERTAHANKAN AIB & MENAHAN AMARAH

Semanjak bermastautin di Dungun, surau Sekolah Menengah Teknik Dungunlah yang menjadi medan untuk bersama kariah setempat. Bukan tiada surau penduduk yang berhampiran, cuma surau sekolah ni lebih hampir dan mampu aku hidupkan usaha-usaha dakwah dikalangan pelajar sekolah. Mungkin kerana sudah lama bersama mereka, ada dikalangan mereka tidak lagi menganggap aku ni sebagai orang luar yang selalunya dihormati, dijaga haknya sebagai pengunjung dan sebagainya.

Sudah banyak barang yang hilang di surau itu. Telefon bimbit yang baru masuk usia 3 tahun, selipar yang seminggu dibeli..dan juga maruah aku. Tidak ingin aku kongsikan pengalaman buruk ini, Cuma banyak hikmah yang aku belajar dari peristiwa ‘besar’ yang berlaku dalam 5 hingga 10 minit aku terkejar-kejar untuk solat asar sebelum melaksanakan janji untuk berusrah dengan ajk-ajk surau. Tapi yang nak dihighlightkan di sini, maruah aku tercalar akibat tindakan ‘bodoh’ mereka. 

Aku panggil salah seorang dari mereka yang rasanya berlima.

Aku rasa marah. Dan aku mahu pertahankan aib aku.

Cuma bagaimana ingin aku tegur?

Aku tanya rasional tindakan mereka. Jawapan yang diberikan tidak munasabah. Aku cuba sedaya mampu untuk sekadar senyum. Aku Tanya lagi, menegaskan ingin dapatkan jawapan mereka. Dia membisu. Aku mengugut. Dia pertahankan jawapannya..aku hilang sabar.

Namun Alhamdulillah, hati kembali sedikit tenang. Cuba untuk memberikan sedikit hikmah dalam teguran. Aku tanya dia kenapa tak solat. Dia jawab dah solat. Sedangkan jamaah baru usai solat asar..kami masih di pintu surau. Aku suruh dia berjanji untuk usahakan solat berjamaah lain kali. Aku mintak jamaah yang baru keluar surau menjadi saksi.

Rasionalkah tindakkan aku? Berhikmahkah..atau aku sekadar ingin kelihatan baik setelah teguran aku itu kelihatan sedikit tidak islamik?

Bila aku fikirkan balik, tindakan aku sebenarnya telah memalukan dia. Dan tindakkan aku itu salah. Mungkin pada sewaktu itu aku melihatkan teguran dan perjanjian akhir kami sebagai satu usaha untuk menggalakkan usaha ma’ruf, namun lebih jelas lagi ia menutup ruang-ruang dakwah aku padanya. Selepas ini, perjanjian kami itu menjadi mainannya, dan aib aku itu mungkin akan terus disebarkan.

Mungkinkah jika aku sekadar menegur tindakannya itu salah, dan mengahirkan pertemuan itu dengan senyuman..ia akan membuahkan hasil yang lebih baik? Bukankah dengan menahan amarah, ia sudahpun menjadi satu qudwah hasanah?

Aku teringat surah ali-Imran ayat 134. Mereka yang bertakwa itu; yang menginfakkan hartanya baik ketika lapang mahupun sempit, menahan amarahnya dan memaafkan manusia.
Menahan amarah, aku gagal saat itu. Memaafkannya, sehingga kini peristiwa itu masih bermain di fikiran. Aku mahu membawa perbekalan takwa, namun kriteria inipun belum mampu aku garap dan laksanakan dalam kehidupan.

Ya Allah, Kau tutup dan lindungilah aibku, perteguhkan pendirianku, jadikan aku dikalangan mereka yang menahan nafsu amarahnya dan mudah memaafkan orang lain.amin. 

Persoalan Buat Kaum Wanita...

amat jarang aku buat posting sebegini..mungkin tidak pernah lagi..

tapi satu persoalan besar yang perlu dirungkaikan:

KEGEDIKKAN; ADAKAH IA SATU FENOMENA YANG DIBUAT-BUAT ATAU SEMULA JADI DIKALANGAN WANITA?

aku kegelian.

mohon pandangan ramai.

Industrial Training @ STS

these are the three plans i've drawn since the last 3 weeks or so of industrial training here. it's not just the drawing, i had to measure up the place, check out the site, get the original idea and feedbacks from my supervisors where each drawing has its own person in charge, go for meetings and have the board make you change everything..well not everything.

but alhamdulillah, its not much a fussy work.

now i'm in charge for the scaffolding progress. not really monitoring the work, but rather charting their progress and dealing with the workleader so that they meet the deadline. frankly speaking, the latest progress i've taken is 0n 22nd April for 35% where the plan should actually have been 74%!!!! and we're supposed to be 100% this 30th April..hahaha.2 MORE DAYS TO GO. this is legendary!

so hopefully everything goes well for the TA (Turnaround) in Petlin. its a big thing actually, where the whole factory shuts down for maintenance work. i was told they are loosing RM3billion/month for the shutdown..and if we delay the maintenance, it'll cost both parties BIG MONEYYY. and probably less salary (for me~)

anyways, tomorrow will have to head down to Petlin to meet the TA Manager for his approval of the drawings. then pass them to the contract consultants. one thing i'm worried about is that i've never met this TA Manager before. and i was told that he's always mad during meetings..huhu.i have confidence with my work, so there should be no worries. ye ke?

one thing about these drawings, we could never get a clear picture if don't look at the whole plan. know each function, who to deal with, know the work flow..and one thing for sure, you have to be there to draw.

in life, you could never have that big picture of your life, if you don't know your objective of living, the functions you serve for others and yourself, who to deal with so that life has a bigger agenda than just living..and most of all, you have to be in the community to understand which part you could play and which part you should avoid being.

broQ: Still trying to adjust myself with 'Sunday Is the First Day of the Week'..being 22years old now, i'm already stuck with the 'Monday Is the First Day of the Week' syndrome

Blood Group Test

As a requirement for my industrial training under Science-Tech Solutions (STS) Sdn. Bhd., I had to undergo the NIOSH Oil Gas Safety Passport (OGSP) for future work access with PETRONAS. Anyway, I took the seminar a week later after my finals, just days before I depart to Terengganu..one thing that they needed from me apart for my passport size picture, was my blood type. I thought I had it done years ago when I did the kidney test in Pantai Hospital, but there wasn’t any documents related to my blood type at home. I only noticed this the night before the seminar! Hahaha..

This only meant that I had to go for a blood test. And it has to be done before I go to Terengganu. So the seminar was on Wednesday, I had Thursday to go for the blood test. But I didn’t. took Thursday as total holiday. Then it was left with Friday.

Being smart, I went to our family clinic (klinik Tengku Husni in Serdang) in the afternoon. Which was a very big mistake since they only take blood samples in the morning so that they could send it to the lab. So I referred to another clinic in Bangi. They had the same answer~

Knowing there was no other choice, I went back to Serdang and asked for alternatives. But there weren’t any. But there is one place that does blood test on Saturdays..Klinik Kesihatan Putrajaya. But they only do it for emergency cases. Blood groupings will be on Monday. But I was given the advice to try which I did. But only to be turned down. I went back to clinic Tengku Husni, and finally, the suggested me to go to Pathlab which was near to South City Plaza..Alhamdulillah. they were still open at 12pm.

All this is just the intro~

I was greeted by this very friendly Chinese auntie who then was the one who stuck the needle into me.
“You look nervous..Calm down la boy. It won’t hurt”
“Never took blood test before ah?”
“Pernah, but then it was years ago..I’ve forgot how the pain was”
“Don’t move ah..saya nak cocok ni”
“Aiyo boy! You gerak tadi..Tengok, blood not coming in”
“Nasib baik needle tak patah..ni I only used the small diameter tau”

All this talking is just the background story~

During that moment of waiting to be struck by the needle, I tried my best to calm down. Not to react and just to accept the pain. Although realizing that, I did react due to the small pain.

“the Muslim is like one body. Apart of it feels pain, all of the body will suffer too”
The hadith stated by RasuluLlah was clearly undoubtful..as it is the perfect analogy. I was pinned on the left arm, and that little pain was felt through the entire body creating a sudden reaction to withstand the pain or perhaps to just eliminate the pain. Even before the needle was struck, I saw the needle, thought of the pain that I’ll feel, it wasn’t only my left arm that was ready, but my entire body was prepared for it.

My story is just about a blood test pain. It’s not loosing an arm or a leg. Not even going through a big operation..So if the ummah is analogically a human body..then what kind of pain is it suffering from? Are we enduring the pain? Can we feel it? Is it so little that we don’t care..or too much till we’re left with no effort to fight back?

وَلْتَكُن مِّنكُمْ أُمَّةٌ يَدْعُونَ إِلَى الْخَيْرِ وَيَأْمُرُونَ بِالْمَعْرُوف 

وَيَنْهَوْنَ عَنِ الْمُنكَرِ وَأُوْلَـئِكَ هُمُ الْمُفْلِحُونَ

[3-Ali Imran:104] And from among you there should be a party who invite to good and enjoin what is right and forbid the wrong, and these it is that shall be successful.

If I refer back to my situation, there will be apart of my body that’ll react to the pain. If the pain is too much, then perhaps one part of the body will extremely react to end the pain. That’s the law, basic instinct, natural reaction.

Thus in the current situation the ummah (meaning the whole mankind) is facing, there will be apart of us that will do the right thing to solve the matter. Jihad, dakwah, politics, etc. 

Then again, the question repeats:
AM I AMONGST THOSE PEOPLE WHO ARE URGING GOOD DEEDS?
WOULD I LIKE TO BE?
OR WOULD I RATHER SIT?

we see great examples in the internet world, be it from proffesionals and also those who want to contribute and make a change like my friend; amir. be it who ever you might be, the task and responsibility to urge good deeds it rested upon each and everyones shoulders. and always remember, even a small deed as big as the smallest known atoms, it's all counted by Allah and for surely be rewarded.

وَنَضَعُ الْمَوَازِينَ الْقِسْطَ لِيَوْمِ الْقِيَامَةِ فَلَا تُظْلَمُ نَفْسٌ شَيْئاً

وَإِن كَانَ مِثْقَالَ حَبَّةٍ مِّنْ خَرْدَلٍ أَتَيْنَا بِهَا وَكَفَى بِنَا حَاسِبِينَ

[21-Al Anbiya':47] And We will set up a just balance on the day of resurrection, so no soul shall be dealt with unjustly in the least; and though there be the weight of a grain of mustard seed, (yet) will We bring it, and sufficient are We to take account.

Qayyim Hafidzi
STS Trainee, Kerteh, Terengganu
TA Assistant for PETLIN 2009
23 April 2009

blood type: O+

Me And My Ideas..Which Stays Only As Ideas

Its not a while nor has it been long..it’s been TOO LONG since my last post. I wonder what category I fall into: not being istiqamah or putting things into perspectives? A lot has been going on since December 2008. I could list a whole lot of em.

1. The attack on Ghazza and the victory of HAMAS upon Israel
2. Task Force on New Year’s Night at KLCC
3. Chinese New Year parkour retreat with the End Vision guys
4. Valentines Day Nahi Munkar operation in UNITEN
5. Katibah XPDC Bukit Tabuh; UNITEN + UTM + KMT
6. Amin’s return (which he has improved a lot..matang sket hahaha)
7. Odi’s birthday which I forgot to wish
8. On Call Driver (where I had TOPS every week)
9. Brother Luqman and Ilhan’s wedding
10. Perak: my layman perspectives
11. Getting retarded due to the procrastinations I’ve been doing (8 reports + 2 projects + 1 course trip)
12. Inconsistent parkour training! But I’ve managed 30 minutes for 3 days last week.
13. Owh yeah..my room is in a mess! Massive mess!
14. A marathon on a bunch of non-motivational movies
15. Usrah baru! Alhamdulillah..but still no ring! Ring! Ello?
16. Usrah baru! Alhamdulillah..moga mereka istiqamah
17. Usrah baru! Cuba nak bentuk..alhamdulillah kalau dapat
18. Some one/thing peed in our house!?
19. Istiqamah dalam amalan, kemanisan iman
20. Slumdog Millionaire..what a story! The filming was great! But jamal must be a very confused muslim

Now readers, vote for your most wanted topic!!! Hahaha…(while doing the sign language for retarded-just watched Russell Peters)